Fat Girl,

Smokey Eye with tarte energy noir palette

September 19, 2015 0 Comments

For my first ever make­up tuto­r­i­al, I use tarte cos­met­ics’ ener­gy noir palette—and let me tell you, I am in love.

Every col­or in this palette is a col­or that works well with my skin tone. I’m cool-to-neu­tral, and this is def­i­nite­ly on the mauve/taupe/plum side of things, which is sim­ply per­fec­tion.

The shad­ows are so eas­i­ly blend­able and build­able. There’s not a lot of fall­out, and they don’t irri­tate my some­times sen­si­tive eyes.

A+, would buy again in a heart­beat.

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Microaggressions and fat-shaming.

September 10, 2015 17 Comments

It is no one’s god­damn busi­ness what I eat, except for me and my doc­tors. I owe no one expla­na­tions for my food choic­es. I owe no one an expla­na­tion for my body. I’m not oblig­at­ed to share my finan­cial avail­abil­i­ty for Good Food, nor my health sur­round­ing abil­i­ty to lose weight or process nutri­ents in a way igno­rant peo­ple think I should. My body does not require an expla­na­tion or an apol­o­gy, and it shouldn’t elic­it the spout­ing of erro­neous infor­ma­tion or mean­ing­less advice from friends, fam­i­ly, or strangers alike — and it most cer­tain­ly shouldn’t inspire com­plete strangers to pres­sure me into eat­ing things I don’t want to eat and adjust­ing my restau­rant orders to some­thing they’re more com­fort­able with a Fat­ty McFat­per­son like me eat­ing.

If I ate noth­ing but fruits and veg­eta­bles, I would not be wor­thy of more respect.

If I ate noth­ing but fried foods and sweet, I would not be wor­thy of less respect.

If I incor­po­rat­ed reg­u­lar inten­sive work­outs into my dai­ly life, I would not be a more wor­thy human.

If I did noth­ing but sit on the couch and eat Chee­tos all day long, I would not be a less wor­thy human.

And I hate so much that, despite work­ing con­stant­ly on body pos­i­tiv­i­ty and self-care for the past 4 years, all it takes is one ter­ri­ble per­son to make me sec­ond-guess the valid­i­ty of my exis­tence and self-worth as a fat femme per­son.

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You matter.

September 7, 2015 1 Comment
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Photoshop Adventures: Power Lines, Be Gone!

August 6, 2015 0 Comments

This week, my com­pa­ny has been work­ing on a client’s web­site, mak­ing some slight design adjust­ments and choos­ing new pho­tos for some of their pages. They’d expressed a desire to use this image as the head­er for their site:

original

The most glar­ing prob­lem was the pole and myr­i­ad tele­phone lines dis­tract­ing from the main sub­ject of the pho­to. So they were the things I took care of first, cre­at­ing a new lay­er enti­tled “clone stamp” and using the clone stamp, heal­ing brush, and paint­brush tools to clean every­thing up. This was rather painstak­ing, tak­ing about 40 min­utes to do since some of what I was remov­ing was in heav­i­ly detailed areas, like the white house on the right and the tiles on the main build­ing.

no-lines

Then I want­ed to adjust the col­or and con­trast a bit. I cre­at­ed two Hue/Saturation adjust­ment lay­ers: one for the whole pho­to, and one with just a mask to tar­get the main build­ing. I also cre­at­ed a build­ing-spe­cif­ic Col­or Bal­ance lay­er to help it stand out just a lit­tle bit more. Final­ly, I cre­at­ed a Curves adjust­ment lay­er to adjust the con­trast of the entire image. Here is the final result:

shopped

And just for fun­sies, here’s the before and after togeth­er.

photoshopped-building

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On treating depression.

August 3, 2015 8 Comments
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Photoshop Adventures: Color Correction & Cloning

July 23, 2015 0 Comments

<p>Not too long ago, my part­ner and I dis­cov­ered the joy that is <a href=“https://twitter.com/aknacer” target=“_blank” rel=“noopener noreferrer”>Aaron Nace</a>‘s <a href=“https://www.youtube.com/user/PhlearnLLC” target=“_blank” rel=“noopener noreferrer”>Phlearn Pho­to­shop and Pho­tog­ra­phy Tutorials</a>. We spent hours almost every evening for a few weeks watch­ing the tuto­ri­als, and it seemed like a whole new world had opened to me. I’ve always been com­pe­tent in Pho­to­shop, don’t get me wrong. But sud­den­ly it seemed like I could move from mere com­pe­ten­cy into pro­fi­cien­cy. In fact, I must hearti­ly thank Phlearn for mak­ing their valu­able resources so read­i­ly avail­able, as even lit­tle tips and tricks I’ve picked up from the show have been so help­ful to me in my job as a graph­ic designer.</p> <p>Particularly when work­ing with stock imagery that’s close to what a client wants, but not quite.</p>

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Photoshop Adventures: Color Correction & Cloning

July 23, 2015 0 Comments

Not too long ago, my part­ner and I dis­cov­ered the joy that is Aaron Nace’s Phlearn Pho­to­shop and Pho­tog­ra­phy Tuto­ri­als. We spent hours almost every evening for a few weeks watch­ing the tuto­ri­als, and it seemed like a whole new world had opened to me. I’ve always been com­pe­tent in Pho­to­shop, don’t get me wrong. But sud­den­ly it seemed like I could move from mere com­pe­ten­cy into pro­fi­cien­cy. In fact, I must hearti­ly thank Phlearn for mak­ing their valu­able resources so read­i­ly avail­able, as even lit­tle tips and tricks I’ve picked up from the show have been so help­ful to me in my job as a graph­ic design­er.

Par­tic­u­lar­ly when work­ing with stock imagery that’s close to what a client wants, but not quite.

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Redeeming Love Review: “Fallen” Angel

July 12, 2015 25 Comments

Overview and analy­sis of chap­ters 1–6. Trig­ger warn­ings for top­ics includ­ing sex traf­fick­ing, child­hood sex­u­al abuse, rape, emo­tion­al abuse, domes­tic vio­lence, and sui­cide.

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Celebrate the little victories.

July 3, 2015 2 Comments

These are such small things. Such lit­tle vic­to­ries. What right have I to cel­e­brate them?

The same right I have to cel­e­brate the vic­to­ries of all of my friends and fam­i­ly who deal with chron­ic ill­ness­es, phys­i­cal and men­tal. Small vic­to­ries are vic­to­ries. Med­ica­tion that allows me to escape the nev­er-end­ing cycle of pan­ic is use­ful. Wrap­ping myself in soft, warm cloth is calm­ing and sooth­ing. Touch­ing my skin and putting make­up on with gen­tle, lov­ing hands is cru­cial on days where I strug­gle to love myself. Such a short amount of time of my day, and yet now I am calm. I can think. I am okay.

Cel­e­brate the lit­tle vic­to­ries. Always, cel­e­brate the lit­tle vic­to­ries.

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Cleaner bezier curves in typography.

July 2, 2015 3 Comments
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