Fat Girl,

The Process of Being.

April 16, 2017 0 Comments

This Sat­ur­day, April 22, I will turn 30 years old. (Want to help me cel­e­brate?)

Frankly, this ter­ri­fies me.

All my life, I nev­er envi­sioned myself liv­ing past the age of 28. I fig­ured that either the rap­ture would have occurred, or I would have killed myself. So you’d think 29 would have been my all-out pan­ic year, but I spent 29 deal­ing with a lot of oth­er things.

Now, with 30 at my doorstep, I’m caught in its head­lights, await­ing its impact with an ever-increas­ing sense of dread.

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As dumpster fires go.

December 31, 2016 0 Comments
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Cognitive distortion and taking up space.

November 3, 2016 2 Comments
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Of masculinity & abusive breeding grounds.

June 8, 2015 0 Comments
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Of masculinity & abusive breeding grounds.

June 8, 2015 0 Comments

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No more faith: the whys and why nots of my deconversion.

December 31, 2014 22 Comments

It’s real­ly rather rare for peo­ple to ask me why I decon­vert­ed from Chris­tian­i­ty. Like, real­ly rare. It’s far more com­mon for them to assume they already know, whether they’re talk­ing to me while they’re express­ing this assump­tion or not. How­ev­er, in a sin­gle week, I’ve had two sep­a­rate unaf­fil­i­at­ed peo­ple ask me a vari­a­tion of the same ques­tion about the role fun­da­men­tal­ism had in my decon­ver­sion. Of course, I’ve been try­ing to fig­ure this out for myself on a less-spe­cif­ic scale for the bet­ter part of two years, though much of it has been in my own head. Per­haps it’s time for me to work out of my thoughts here with you.

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I belong to me: learning agency & consent outside Christianity.

November 15, 2014 28 Comments

By and large, Chris­tian­i­ty as a sys­tem in the West­ern world teach­es peo­ple to run rip-shod over the bound­aries of those with­in and with­out their camps under the guise of love.25 The con­sent of its mem­bers and non-mem­bers alike isn’t required, as clear­ly demon­strat­ed by the past almost 28 years of my exis­tence. And that’s a mas­sive prob­lem, enabling (and at times com­mand­ing) the manip­u­la­tion, mis­treat­ment, and abuse of count­less peo­ple.

In fact, I’d say one of the defin­ing char­ac­ter­is­tics of Chris­tian­i­ty today is that it has a con­sent prob­lem.

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I belong to me: learning agency & consent outside Christianity.

November 15, 2014 28 Comments

<p>By and large, Chris­tian­i­ty as a sys­tem in the West­ern world teach­es peo­ple to run rip-shod over the bound­aries of those with­in and with­out their camps under the guise of love.<sup><a href=“http://www.patheos.com/blogs/godlessindixie/2014/10/15/your-love-is-toxic/” target=“_blank” rel=“noopener noreferrer”>25</a></sup> The con­sent of its mem­bers and non-mem­bers alike isn&rsquo;t required, as clear­ly demon­strat­ed by the past almost 28 years of my exis­tence. And that&rsquo;s a <i>massive</i> prob­lem, enabling (and at times <i>commanding</i>) the manip­u­la­tion, mis­treat­ment, and abuse of count­less people.</p> <p><b>In fact, I&rsquo;d say one of the defin­ing char­ac­ter­is­tics of Chris­tian­i­ty today is that it has a con­sent problem.</b></p>

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Lessons learned at the Fortress of Faith: An Introduction.

August 6, 2014 4 Comments

I thought that the hard­est thing about being at BJU was going to be just learn­ing how to fol­low an amaz­ing­ly ridicu­lous set of rules — and frankly, I thought I had that cov­ered. I grew up in a con­ser­v­a­tive Chris­t­ian school where BJU groups vis­it­ed for recruit­ment pur­pos­es. I was usu­al­ly one of the good kids, so I thought BJU was going to be a col­lege-ver­sion of my high school. No big deal.

Boy, was I wrong.

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Some thoughts on rape culture and unintentional derailing.

June 4, 2014 4 Comments
Image from TV Week.

Rape cul­ture affects every­one, but we don’t have to have all the con­ver­sa­tions about all the things any time we want to talk about one of them.

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